So, I’ve posted this a long while back, but I’m posting it again because it makes me feel good to watch it. This was filmed (by my little sister) in a stable part of my life, and I really miss that — stability. I was working at Nintendo at the time and living with my dad in Seattle. Everything was relatively consistent. I never would’ve guessed it back then, but being there taught me that I actually thrive in a consistent and stable environment. I need routine, to an extent. I’m somewhat of an impulsive person, but being impulsive is a hell of a lot more fun when it’s within the confines of routine. At least I think it is. It’s a lot more fun (and not stressful) to drive across the country on a whim when you know you’ll have a place to come home to. I really love traveling, exploring, getting myself out there — but I need a base, man. Just like anybody else. I need a place to call home and be able to come back to.
You know, I never made a New Year’s resolution, so I think I’ll make one now: regrowth. I need to get my life in order. I need to better learn how to prioritize what is important and what isn’t. And I need to de-stress. Oh man, am I stressed. All the time. At least that’s how it is lately, and I think it’ll get better once everything is in perspective. I need to remind myself from time to time what is most important to me, what is good for me, and what is bad for me. I know myself pretty damn well; well enough that I should have no problem stopping myself from falling into bad habits and patterns.
That’s not to say that I’m some drug-crazed maniac or love-freak whore. I’m talking menial things. Which, believe it or not, in my life, are beginning to grow more and more important. Sleeping schedules, eating habits, social habits, and the like, all need to be revamped. I have such a tendency to get completely lost in thought that it can be paralyzing at times, and I need to watch out for that too.
And music. I need to write lots of damn music. And I need to be more thankful for all of the shit that I am unbelievably lucky to have: people who love me, a roof over my head, a brain in my head, a body that’s in decent working order, and amazing friends.
I don’t really have a point to saying all of this, but there it is. I hope you all are doing well and enjoying life. And for those of you who may be in a bit of a rough spot like me right now, I hope it gets better.
And now I am done sounding all thoughtful and cliché.
