I’ve been stuck out here so long it’s making me sick. I can handle being alone for prolonged periods — I even enjoy it — but this is ridiculous. I am not made to function this way. I thrive with a healthy balance of social interaction and alone time. Right now it seems all I have is alone time. I’m beginning to think I’m losing my mind. I spend so many hours just thinking, and I think about so much it’s overwhelming. I think about the future, and it seems like something that’s totally out of reach. I feel like I’m stuck in the present, and I really don’t like the present.
Any tiny thing can flick the anxious switch in my head and make me sad instantaneously. The same goes for happiness. I would give anything for a short cut to the midwest. My home. I just miss home. I miss my home.
I’ve been through a similar situation… as far as I can tell. You’ll get through it. You’re not losing your mind, you’re just expanding it. Even though I can’t say exactly how you feel I do know it’s hard. I’m not one of those people who says ‘everything is for a reason’, but I DO believe everything can be a lesson. Everything can be used for growth and the experience can yield some great tunes. =-)
Hang in there.
: ) Thanks. I know I’ll get through it, I just wish this could all HURRY UP. And I know for sure I won’t regret this period; I’m on the same page with you there — I think everything has the potential to be a lesson. I should really just use all of this down time to be a productive as possible.
